Defining Happy

How does one start to describe the happy emotion he or she feels? I don't know, really, but let me try...

Before 2008 ended, I was a bit hesitant to welcome 2009 for the sole reason that I felt I was having the best year ever - I was scared it would become opposite with the coming of the new year. It was the year I finally married the man I love, went on my dream honeymoon, was recognized and transferred to a new role I enjoy at work, bought our first investment, etc. I thought nothing could top those. Well, until now.

When Jax and I moved in to our own place on that same year, we had to go through a lot of adjustments. Like any newly married couple, we had our share of arguments - some petty, others over something I would cry my eyeballs out, some were even to the point of us questioning ourselves if we did the right thing. It was hard, but we managed to sort it out each and every time. I'm not sure how exactly, but what I do know is that it involved a lot of talking, understanding, forgiving, accepting, loving, and most important of all, praying.

As days and months passed, I noticed our fights became less and less. We have slowly both discovered what makes the other happy, and tried to respect and give each other that, no matter how silly or "unreasonable" it may seem. We were "just getting the hang of it" when "it" happened. Junior happened. We weren't really planning on having a baby just yet (I wanted a second honeymoon on our first wedding anniversary), but the news of an addition to our family of course made us very excited. We learned be "one" in everything we do all the more.

2009 did go by in a breeze. My pregnancy turned out to be, well, "light". Jax and I still had those ups and downs (mostly in our careers and finances) but with prayers and lots of support from family and friends, we survived. It wasn't an easy ride but God made sure we were ok and that everything was taken cared of. Now looking back, it still amazes me how things just fell perfectly into place!

Now going back to my definition of happy. It's quite difficult to put into words. For now, I guess I'd have to say it's when you know in your heart you're exactly where you're supposed to be. It's not smooth sailing nor a bed of roses, it's just that inexplicable feeling that you know you wouldn't trade places with anyone else in this world. :)

Junior

Has it already been 3 months? Everything seems to be happening in a blur! I'll try to make up for lost (blogging) time by sharing what's up with me lately.

Actually, I think I'm just going to focus on the most recent significant milestone in my our lives - a week before my birthday, Jax and I learned that we're 6 weeks on the way! Yup, it's confirmed. I'm gonna be a mommy sometime in December or January. Isn't that amazing?!? We're hoping it's a boy. In fact, we're temporarily naming him "Junior", as if it has any effect on the baby's gender...

The night we knew we were pregnant. Yep, that's Jax holding the pregnancy test kit - positive! :)

Our first ultrasound. Junior's first pic.

I'd still like to think I'm fortunate my first trimester wasn't as bad as the usual stories I hear from other moms. Well, it was difficult in the sense that I found it so hard to wake up in the morning (can't get up in bed even if I'm already awake!), I was always sleepy (to think I'm not a sleep person), and I couldn't do any chores at home. But apart from those, I was ok - no morning sickness whatsoever, weird cravings, or any of those almost-standard pregnancy traumas. My mom said she didn't experience any of those either when she was pregnant so I'm hoping I'd have the same fate, including having normal delivery.

Now I'm at my 16th week. Except for the dreaded vitamins I have to take daily, (my friends know how much I abhor taking any form of meds), I'm much better. I can do a little bit more now, though still basic, not-much-effort-required stuff. There are still days when I just want to crawl under the sheets and sleep all day but I think that's really more because of the weather (which, by the way, drives me crazy!). My baby bump is more evident now and I'm finding it harder to choose what to wear to the office more and more each day. My very excited mother already gave me a few sets of preggy clothes, including two pairs of maternity pants (both of which probably wouldn't fit me until I'm on my 6th month!) but I still want to shop for more. Baby Center says I should be feeling my baby move anytime soon so that's something I'm very much looking forward to. :)

And how about the father? Ooooh Jax is even more excited than I am! I know he's trying his best to pamper me the best way he knows how. ;)